First Post of 2019

The year has gotten off to a great start. I’m feeling hopeful and renewed. I already made a big change.

My hair went from blonde

to a dark auburn brown.

I’m quite happy with the results.

I also started writing poetry again. I haven’t felt inspired in a while, but that has changed. It all makes me feel alive and reborn. I hope that everyone else feels as revitalized as I do right now.

All the best for this wonderful new year!

Last Post of the Year

It has been one crazy year. From three failed IVF cycles to losing my source of income to getting a new job, it has been a rollercoaster of emotions. I saw a motivational poster recently that really struck home. It was of a Chinese proverb that said: Be not afraid of going slowly; be afraid only of standing still.

That is one philosophy I intend to take with me into the new year. Progress, however minute, is still progress and I need to remember that. Even if I am only inching forward towards my goals, I am still moving. It’s something I tend to forget, a lot.

My goals aren’t huge as of now. They are pretty basic: Drink more water and less soda, stop cussing, and start exercising again. I know I can attain each of them, so long as I remember that it’s not going to happen overnight.

I believe we can all reach the goals we set for ourselves, no matter how big or small. All we need is the motivation and support to get there. As a last token of whimsy for this year, here is a picture of my two Narwhal mugs to make you smile.

Happy New Year, everyone!!

Remembrance

Twenty-two years ago today, my great-grandmother passed away. I didn’t know her as well as I would have liked, but I do have some fond memories. She always wore a turban, for some reason, had a collection of glass trinkets. She gave me one for my birthday one year. It was a glass dish shaped like a bunch of grapes. It was beautiful and particularly special since she didn’t usually give away parts of her collection. I’m pretty sure I still have it, somewhere. In all my moves, it got misplaced. I hope to find it again someday.

The winter holidays are all about family, the ones that are here and the ones that are gone. We lost GG Vi while we were in Okinawa, five months before returning to California. It broke my heart that we weren’t able to say goodbye, but I continue to remember her affectionately, especially this time of year.

I will never forget you, GG Vi, for you are always in my heart.

Wishing everyone Happy Holidays and joyful time spent with family and friends.

Balance

Eight months ago, I published my first book. It’s a book of poetry titled Juxtaposition. It is full of poems that speak to both the light and the dark sides of humanity. I find the contrast between the two fascinating, especially since there is both in every person.

We must all find a balance between what is good and what is bad. Sometimes, that balance is harder to maintain than we’d like. Those are the times when we all need a little reminder that things will get better.

I want everyone to remember that depression lies. You are worth more than you know.

Happy Holidays.

Happy Thanksgiving

It’s almost Turkey Day!! The food holiday that many people look forward to all year long. It’s the one day when eating way too much is not only socially acceptable, but absolutely expected. The day for stretchy pants and food coma’s.

It’s a day for being thankful for what we have and spending time with family while eating fabulous food. I’m not hosting Thanksgiving this year, but we were invited to a cousin’s house for dinner. She has everything covered, but I wanted to bring her a little something anyway. So, I had a bit of a baking day today.

I made Shortbread Cookies using a recipe from GeniusKitchen.com

I made a Pumpkin Roll using a recipe from GimmeSomeOven.com

I made Raspberry Pastry Roll-Ups using a recipe from GeniusKitchen.com

And, I made Cheesecake Stuffed Banana Bread using a recipe from CookiesandCups.com

It was a fun and tasty day.

I’m super thankful for all the people in my life who are there when I need them. I’m also thankful for my husband, dogs, and birds. Our little family unit makes me happy every day and I will always be grateful that we are together.

Hope everyone has a wonderful holiday!

Surgery Update

My procedure went well yesterday. I’m still pretty sore, but otherwise doing fine. I go back next week to find out what the doctor found out, if anything.

That’s it for now. I gotta go lay back down.

Talk to you again, soon.

Nerves

I’m having surgery in two days. I’ve had this type of surgery before and I know that it’s routine, but I’m still feeling a little nervous. I just keep telling myself that this may be exactly what I need to finally get where I’ve been going for the past sixteen years.

I can hope at least.

So, if you can, send me good vibes, positive thoughts, what have you. I would greatly appreciate it.

See you on the other side.

Cathartic Release

This is going to be a short post.

I recently found myself waking up with tears running down my face. In my dream, I remember sobbing about … something. Whatever it was, it seems that my mind decided I needed to release some strong, pent up emotions.

Sometimes this catharsis is gained by purposely watching a sad movie or listening to a sad song. In my case, my unconscious deemed it necessary for me to release these emotions on a schedule I was unaware about. It doesn’t happen often, but from time to time, I find that I cry in my sleep.

Perhaps I’m an oddball, or perhaps, I’m not the only one. All I know for sure is that releasing emotions that I’m holding onto, whether consciously or unconsciously, certainly helps me feel better. And that is always a good thing.