The year has gotten off to a great start. I’m feeling hopeful and renewed. I already made a big change.
My hair went from blonde
to a dark auburn brown.
I’m quite happy with the results.
I also started writing poetry again. I haven’t felt inspired in a while, but that has changed. It all makes me feel alive and reborn. I hope that everyone else feels as revitalized as I do right now.
All the best for this wonderful new year!
It has been one crazy year. From three failed IVF cycles to losing my source of income to getting a new job, it has been a rollercoaster of emotions. I saw a motivational poster recently that really struck home. It was of a Chinese proverb that said: Be not afraid of going slowly; be afraid only of standing still.
That is one philosophy I intend to take with me into the new year. Progress, however minute, is still progress and I need to remember that. Even if I am only inching forward towards my goals, I am still moving. It’s something I tend to forget, a lot.
My goals aren’t huge as of now. They are pretty basic: Drink more water and less soda, stop cussing, and start exercising again. I know I can attain each of them, so long as I remember that it’s not going to happen overnight.
I believe we can all reach the goals we set for ourselves, no matter how big or small. All we need is the motivation and support to get there. As a last token of whimsy for this year, here is a picture of my two Narwhal mugs to make you smile.
Happy New Year, everyone!!
Eight months ago, I published my first book. It’s a book of poetry titled Juxtaposition. It is full of poems that speak to both the light and the dark sides of humanity. I find the contrast between the two fascinating, especially since there is both in every person.
We must all find a balance between what is good and what is bad. Sometimes, that balance is harder to maintain than we’d like. Those are the times when we all need a little reminder that things will get better.
I want everyone to remember that depression lies. You are worth more than you know.
So, life being what it is, I’m about 10,000 words behind and there is only a week left of November. I don’t think I’m going to make it, but I’m pretty happy about how far I got in my first attempt.
Maybe next year I’ll get a little farther.
Maybe I’ll even make it all the way to the end.
Who knows – stranger things have happened.
My procedure went well yesterday. I’m still pretty sore, but otherwise doing fine. I go back next week to find out what the doctor found out, if anything.
That’s it for now. I gotta go lay back down.
Talk to you again, soon.
I’m having surgery in two days. I’ve had this type of surgery before and I know that it’s routine, but I’m still feeling a little nervous. I just keep telling myself that this may be exactly what I need to finally get where I’ve been going for the past sixteen years.
I can hope at least.
So, if you can, send me good vibes, positive thoughts, what have you. I would greatly appreciate it.
See you on the other side.
Sometimes, things don’t go as planned.
My car died yesterday and I ended up having to replace the battery since it wouldn’t hold a charge anymore, for some unknown reason.
I couldn’t open my reusable water bottle this morning and had to fill it using the tiny opening I drink from.
My phone freaked out today and wouldn’t respond for about 5 hours.
I wore the wrong shoes to work and my feet are killing me now.
But, even with everything going wrong, I still believe that amazing things are going to happen. Positivity in the face of crushing defeat is difficult, but totally worth it.